Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Life

Beautiful skyline, i always like this picture, from the terrace of my house, early morning, the mango groove, coconut leaves and wild jasmine in the back drop of the orange sky, just before the sunrise. Home, it just feels as if its been ages, but then life gives you very few choices, pick the one which suits you the best and then stop cribbing. I have been doing the same. And wish to continue.

Been busy? asked a friend, i had no reply, i will always be busy, that's how i want it to be but somewhere i just left behind a few things; my music, my blog, keeping in touch and generally left behind an important part of my living. Not deliberately, it was getting too difficult to handle everything and i left what i was comfortable with, because it won't hurt others, its ok if it hurts me. There was a scary C word in the family, there was work and then there was more work and with that came petty politics at work place and came the name and the fame and you just need to keep up with it all, cannot loose it can we? but then it hit hard one fine morning.
I guess there was a meeting and the chancellor was talking, i heard the line, " People won't remember that you were right 99 times, they will still talk about that one time when you were wrong"
Is it so? then what am i running for? Ppl will anyway talk, and i am not god:)

And i am back, to the world of music, back to blogging and to keep in touch, i don't know if i will be able to keep up the decision but i will try, 2010 is ending and i hope atleast the new year will bring the cheer for the tired soul.

Rain and the chilled air, the silence in the house as usual, it looks so peaceful, i am listening to Surili akhiyon wale, suna hai teri akhiyon se ,Behti hai neendein aurr neendon mein sapne,Kabhi to kinare pe, utar mere sapno se,Aaja zameen pe aurr mil ja kahin pe" Beautiful song. I wish life was simple, but then its in my hands, as always i mess it up and then i solve the puzzle myself.

A friend sent a quote in the morning " Patience and silence are powerful energies... Patience makes u mentally strong, silence makes you emotionally strong" by Abdul kalam.

9 comments:

Ardra said...

So happy To see you back Neelu!

Stone said...

Good to see you back!!!

...and in my books leaving music even for few days can never be a good decision :-)

Sree said...

welcome... want to see more of you..a happy hug.

Hirdu said...

Welcome back...enjoy the joy...

Neelima arora said...

Welcome back.
Whenever I found time, the first thing I want to see online was your blog. I don't know how but our life runs parallel and take similar turns at times. I too was going through a rough patch and left a big part of my existence, music, painting and poetry and was losing patience.
Good luck for new beginnings.

diya said...

good to see you back!! I have been neglecting my blog too, for sometime, doing some social networking in right earnest!!
you have the rare power of pulling your own self out of sadness and remorse, that is a great strength. In so doing you inspire others...it is true, you might be wonderful but there will always be people to point out your flaws. The only person that you need to make happy, is yourself, so ignore the detracters and move right on with your music and your thoughts. Thepicture of dawn from your house is lovely...it has a promise of good things to come...

Arunima said...

amazing last line. yes, the year is finally ending. Let people remember the 1 time you were wrong, but i hope the 99 times were worth the fight. cheers! :-)

Monika said...

Reading your post, i felt i was living my last dreadful year back ( philosophically talkin about some bad things that happened to me)
Sometimes, leaving everything and getting into desolation seems an easy option but life has always something in store for you.. Never stop dreaming..never let anyone say you are good for nothing.
Hoping to listen to you more now.. and yeah Hi.. this is Monika from gurgaon.

Can know me more via http://rationalsensualities.blogspot.com/

Manju M said...

hii...and Welcome back...I read your blog for the first time...I really liked it...I've been going through a similar phase of isolation and desperation...leaving behind what i've always loved...but you are right...some ppl don't care to remember us when we were right...just that they try to highlight our flaws...its better we live our lives the way we like...
nice post..
thanks...

 

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