Sunday, February 12, 2012

mausam

Marari beach, Alleppey.
Another sunday, filled with silence, but not silent like before, You can hear the traffic, kids playing the basement, TV in hall,music from the bedroom, but strangely, i can still feel the silence. It fills the heart, it fills my mind, a calmness which is much needed after the noise of life. Is it six months already? Some said bad luck, some said why you always? some suggested visiting temples, and some just held the hand and stood in silence. One after the other, accidents, injury, fever, hospitalization, and then the abortion, recovery, leaving the job, joining back, again operation, and one final day i asked myself "why me" I screamed, i want to give up, i can't take it anymore, but then, i dint give up.
Recovering is more painful, i know, but then who said life is easy, but isn't it worth? I am still searching for the answers.
I want to write, again:) i want to listen to music, again, want to take out my camera, again, laugh, again, basically, trying to heal:) from the physical and emotional pain which is covering the heart like the thick fog, but wouldn the sunshine tear it away??? hoping for it.


9 comments:

Art said...

Oh Neels i dint know :(
and whatever i say cannot heal what u r going thru

i can only say take care dear. A lot of people love u and you have to get back to normal for them

Sree said...

Hugs!!! Neelima edo bagoledu ani stronggaa anipinchindi.. you will emerge stronger, stop listening to people and listen to yourself in these silences you will find answers.. love and a lot more love.

Stone said...

No words :-(

Take care Neel!!

Sarah said...

In each and every storm..there is a rainbow..

it doesn't take the pain away, but it gives you stregth to take each day..
Look for the rainbow..
take care

Neelima Arora said...

Dear Neels!
Sad to know what you were going through. Just take care of yourself and remember "Par waqt ye bhi gujar jayega!!!"
You will emerge as stronger than ever. I know words are no relief to pain that you endured but I am sure that you will overcome this phase.Its difficult time indeed but your desire to again live life, again smell roses reflects on your willpower.
Take care

Anonymous said...

I will be fine,have to be :) Thank you arthi,Sree, stoneji, sarah, neelima.

Hirdu said...

Neelima, Never "give up" on life...The Neelima I know, has always been a winner.

Lord cares for you. You will be okay

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