Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Ek Lamha

I was in school when the movie was released and i watched it when i was in my graduation i guess but after that i must have watched 10 times when cable TV was not the in thing and we could see regional movies on Sunday afternoon and one lucky day i watched it in Telugu also, one of the best movies of Indian film industry and with Maniratnam and Illayaraja nothing can ever go wrong.

There was no sign of sun rays yet, its cold but i enjoy the fog and i just kept walking, First time, yeah, its been a year since we shifted to Bangalore,Yes,exactly a year and first time of this one year i ventured out alone to walk to the temple,Something i just have forgotten to do after coming here,
but today i wanted to,i felt like running away from the confines of the flat,which for most of the day is locked or closed and curtains drawn and in silence.I wanted the fresh air,i wanted to hear the voices,And i set off,to the temple,it was too early for the ultra modern Bangalorean to wake up and venture out on a cold winter day and the sounds of chirping birds and barking dogs greeted me and i smelled coffee, heavenly coffee being brewed, Wonder why i never tasted it till date but it felt good and then the song came to me, of the movie i mentioned, MOUNA RAGAM, the tamil version, i don't understand the lyrics and for the first time,its dint matter, i heard the song coming out from some where, someone who is listening to Illayaraja at 6am on the first of January,wish i knew who it was.......but rest of the walk,i was humming,...."nilaavae vaa sellaadhae vaa, ennaalum un ponvaanam naan,enai needhaan pirindhaalum ninaivaalae anaiththaenae,nilaavae vaa....."

And i put on the ear phones,i love my new phone,and everytime i remember i stored 150 of my fav songs and the truth that i can hear them anytime widens my smile.. " Tumne to aakash bichhaya,mere nange pairo main zameen hai,dekhe to tumhaari aarzoo hai,shayad aisi zindagi haseen hai,aarzoo main behne do,pyaasi hoon main pyasi rahne do,katra katra milti hai,katra katra jeenedo,zindagi hai, behne do.."

The greenery around,empty roads,the pink flowers covering the sky and there was still no sign of the sun rays, the chill was making me numb but the feel of it all made me walk further more,"lisening to"Ae zindagi yeh lamha jee lene de,Oh, pehle se likha kuch bhi nahin,Roz naya kuch likhti hai tu,Jo bhi likha hai, dil se jiya hai,Yeh lamha filhaal jee lene de"

Fresh flowers, chandan, coconuts,the omkaram, archana, kumkum, haldi, the incense sticks smelling heavenly, bare feet on the cold floor and the deity all decorated beautifully, a sense of calm when i sat there silently, "bas ek chup sii lagi hai nahii.n udaas nahii.n,kahiin pe saans rukii hai nahiin udaas nahiin,bas ek chup sii lagii hai"

she came and sat next to me,just for two minutes, must be of 5 yrs, absorbing the silence maybe, she was wearing her silk blouse and skirt and with chandan on her forhead and a rose in her hair,she looked so beautiful,maybe the innocence and a simple smile can make anyone look beautiful, she just sat there while her mother and father did the parikrama, then slowly she went to the near by plant and touched the flowers,slowly, she was touching the dew drops,and then she smiled,first slowly and then she ran,laughing,and i heard her telling her dad about her discovery, "Did it rain" her question.. and he was explaining.."No,but..."
i just walked off, Leaving her with her dad, with just one question still at some dark corner of my world which is lingering around for past 17yrs.. Does he miss us? how is it to be with both dad and mom.Strange,certain questions never leave you. do they???
"Ek roj zindagi ke ru-baru aa baithe..., zindagi ne poocha..dard kya hai..? Kyun hota hai..?
Kahan hota hai, yeh bhi toh pata nahi chalta....,Tanhai kya hai aakhir...?Kitne log toh hain...fir tanha kyun ho...?,Mera chehra dekh kar zindagi ne kaha...,main tumhari judwa hun...mujhse naaraz na hua karo...!!"

And there it was,the first rays of sun gracing the world gently and the numbness in my limbs is off,rubbing my hands together i rushed back home,to the silence,to the closed indoors,to the confines of my flat,to get ready,to face the world in a few minutes,when i come out at 8am to leave for work,i can never hear that song from mounaragam, no birds chirping around,the dew and fog vanish and so does the silence and freshness but then there is always Another New Day..Isn't it:)

"abhee alawidaa mat kaho dosaton,jaane kahaa fir mulaakaat ho,beete huye lamahon kee kasak saath to hogee,,khwaabon hee mein ho chaahe, mulaakaat to hogee,ye saath gujaare huye,lamahaata kee daulat jajabaat kee daulat,ye khayaalaat kee daulat,kuchh paas naa ho paas ye saugaat to hogee"

Before i forget, A Happy New Year To All Of You Out There,yes,to you too,the one reading the post now:)

20 comments:

Keshi said...

Lovely post with very beautiful pics to go with it. HAPPY NEW YEAR Alapana!

Yes there's always a NEW day.

Keshi.

Pallavi said...

Wishing you a very happy new year Neels.. :) Keep happy..

Citric Acid said...

Great photos.. Beautiful lyrics.. have been visiting for some time now.

Happy new year.

Stone said...

Hiiii......

Happy New Year Neel!!

Keep smiling!

All Smiles!! said...

Lovely post!!! A very happy new year to you too :)

GuNs said...

Happy new year. Hope you had a good new year's eve.

Thats a really nice post, I must say. BTW, what new phone do you have?

Renu said...

Hey that is a lovely post. Early mornings are serene and have a beauty of their own. Your post reminded me of some of those beautiful moments that I have experienced. A very happy new year to you...

Michelle said...

happy new year alapana! may it bring happiness in many different ways!

Usha said...

A very happy new year to you.
That song - the tamil one - is one of my favorites too.
As for the question at the back of your mind, I believe he missed something whether he realised it or not.
have a great year!

jupallis said...

Wish you a very happy new year Neels.

So how is Bangalore treating you? I guess you were all up against comming to Blore.. now how do you feel?

@$#!$# said...

hey...a very happy new year to you :)

may you get a lot of joy n happiness this year...

Alapana said...

Keshi,Thank you and a happy new year to you too:)

Pallavi,learning and learning fast,To keep happy;p

Aurora,right:)I have been coming to your blog for quite sometime too,good to see the comment though,thanks

Alapana said...

Stoneji, thanku thanku:)

All smiles,i am all smiles looking at the comment:)

guns,i did,it was silent and simple new years eve and i have a nokia music series:)

Renu,you are right, mornings are magic, thanku and happy new year to you too.

Alapana said...

michelle, Hope so and rock on girl,have a wonderful new year and may god bless you:)

Ushaji, Thank you,your words always make a difference to my thinking, maybe he does,it helps when we stop hating someone and make peace with ourselves,isn't it.

Jupallis, wrong time to ask me the question dude,i am so angry for being here because i am unable to buy a flat with a decent budget:((( How are you and where are you?

Ashish,hope it brings lot of joy to you too, happy new year.

sumana said...

happy new year :-)

Anonymous said...

Happy New Year Neels! As always, your post have the freshness of the new year...
anumita

Ardra said...

Dear N,
Your post has the moistness of the morning dew and the fragrance of hopeful cheer,contentment and serenity ...
Here's wishing you a Beautiful year ahead filled with Happiness...
love
ardra

Kiran said...

hi....
all i can say is....
"all the best....."
the post was great....

Manish said...

Naya saal aapko bhi mubaraq ho..

Lavanya said...

I love that song "yeh lamha"..many found it boring, dunno how.Happy new yr :)

 

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