Pati,Patni Aur Woh.

Dear R,Stop scaring people,specially kids,stop feeling that you are a human,and stop barking at all fellow dogs,you wont find a girlfriend if you do so,you are not supposed to eat icecreams, samosas and mirchibajji and sweets.And now,off with your arrogant look on that cute face of yours,just because you were named the KING doesn't mean you act like one,by the way that chair on which you regally spend more than half of your day is inherited by me from my granny three years back,and its 75yrs old,so can i sit in it once without you barking and shooing me away,
And that bed is mine too and i still cant believe that you thought i am going to harm mom when all i was trying was to lift her up in the air and you chased me for good ten min and calmed down only when mom assured you of her safety,thankyou mom,i owe you my life. but did i tell you that i love you the most:) yes,i do.

Dear S,now please stop staring at me with those "woh dear,plz someone feed me,i am starving,these ppl dont give me food" kind of look,will ya,and sure someone is going to call some dog protection cell and throw us in jail for torturing you poor soul,You have always been moms favorite,isn't it,and you always get away from any punishment because she never believes that you can do anything wrong,now how do i explain to her that looks can be deceptive.I know that secret extra cups of milk you get from mom when you ceremoniously follow her to kitchen at 4am, huh,you are her tail surely, "wherever you go,our network follows" has become your motto in life.
You cannot fool me,bhuhahahah {bloody hell,but you always fool me:(,dont you,and i end up sharing my already small with my height and size bed and lurk away to one corner waking up with stiff neck,back and whatnot.And will you please bring that new sandal of mine which you put away under the bed just because i scolded you.mom till date is not ready to believe that it was you and not R,Stop looking like that,i know you,and yes,I love you:)

Me:Dont they look cute and adorable,look at the way they are playing"

Hubby: Yeah,thankgod!!!!!!

Me:Now why that thankgod????

Hubby:They are not married,so they are having all the fun,i am so happy for them,what a dogs life it is ,sigh!!!!!
{whose????,no reply @#$%^@$%

zindagi haseen hain

I want to be there,where dreams turn to reality,where the sea and sky embrace and whisper their love for eachother,at that moment i want to stand on the shores,holding your hand and let the silence speak,Life is tough,but with you around,solutions always come to me easily,Thankyou for being there.

This is one of my very favourite album and the combination of Gulzar and RD makes it even more special,and feels great to start your day with the song.........

"katraa katraa milthi hai, katraa katraa jeene do, zindagii hai, bahne do~~~~~
pyaasi hoon main pyasi rehne do,rehne do naaaaa,
tumne to aakash bichhaya,mere nange pairo main zameen hai,
dekhe to tumhaari aarzoo hai,,shayad aisi zindagi haseen hai,
aarzoo main bahne do,pyaasi hoon main pyaasi rehne do

halke halke kohre ke dhue mein,shayad aasman tak aagayi hoon,
teri do nigaho ke sahaare dekho tho kahaatha aagayi hoon,
kohre mein behne do,pyasi hoon mein pyasi rehne do

Me:What gift did you get me from there" {all excited and searching his airbag}

Hubby: Hmmm,errrrr,hmmm

Me:What??? you forgot,isn't it,so mean of you" {all th while ignoring a small box without any giftwrap in one corner of the bag.I walk off:( }

After 5 min he called me into the hall where he is all beaming and i notice a small porcelain gift,a girl and guy in a dancing pose and then i looked at him blank,he smiled and he connected a plug into the socket and turned on the switch and there started a small water fountain in there,oh,i understood,the girl was standing in a lotus,he was looking at me and i was looking at the "Eight wonder of the world"

Hubby:Did you like it" Me:Errr,hmmm, what made you bring me this?

Hubby:You like water,dont u?

Me:water!!!!!!!! oh,that {i told him i love sea,rivers and ponds and beaches but fountains?????" and that too as a gift????
And it reminds me of a gift i would give to a ten year old girl and i am not one.

Hubby: Oh,i though your are one,atleast you remind me one:)
What???? Huh,men !@#$%$#@!

Well,not bad that way,atleast he rememberd i like WATER:( in past eight months i got two stuffed dogs,{ He remembered i love pets} one parker pen,{i collect pens}a laptop{wanted me to finish my phd},a pendrive{so that i dont waste his cd's and dvd's} and now this.
Will i ever get something feminine? and he asked "Why do YOU need a feminine gift,thats for someone ....." Sigh,hope next week when he comes he wont bring something which reminds me of a 5yr kid:(indai

But dear hubby,if you are reading this,you know it very well that i love the way you are,dont change:D

Pic courtesy:Deviant art.
Album :Gulzar remembers Pancham.

Bas Yun Hi

Hectic week well spent with people whom i care for and who love me the most and i am back with more news:) Sankranti was spent with family and loads of food and lot of travelling and there were a few moments which i want to erase from my memory and try not to repeat it ever again and i hope to follow a few rules made by me and i want to control my anger and frustration,why can't i just hold on for a few more minutes? why do i have to raise my voice or get it out of the system what ever the reaction is? Well,thats how i am,no acting or no diplomacy,no nonsense and i end up in trouble most of the times:)
There would be new collegues in the dept from tomorrow onwards,i wouldn say i am looking forward to the changes but hope things would be as fine as they are now.
Too many questions in my head and i have no answers to any of them;p

I want to learn French,and i am still not able to figure out WHY?

I am watching the baap of all the serials "BIGBOSS" on Sony entertainment and am thoroughly entertained every day 10pm to 11pm.No answers to "HOW"

I know i am soon leaving this city but the question is "WHEN" and i have no idea.

And i want to run away,elope now with dear hubby,kidnap him away from his workholic schedule,now the point is to "WHERE"

Do you want to watch Mithun chakravarthy the performer,Not Abhishek but Gurukanth Desai and excellent cinematography by Rajeev menon,and above all a good movie by Maniratnam,go watch GURU people,excellent movie and i thoroughly enjoyed it first day last show;p though i am not much convinced about the ending of the movie its a great entertainer with a message,Dare to dream,dare to make them real and also it was one of the most enjoyed evening of my 8 months married life,a movie with hubby and two of my best friends K & S and long drive home at mid night bugging hubby till he got me the long due icecream,while he was busy driving i was busy eating:)

Me :Why dont you drive faaaaaaaaaaaaast,overtake that vehicle in front"
Hubby: Well,with you behind the bike wont go beyond this speed"

Me: You mean i am plump? you are talking about my weight,mean fellow,i hate you"
Hubby: Errrr,i am only saying its not safe driving so fast with you behind"
Yeah right@#$%@#@$%@ huh,men! ! ! !

Was listening to this song today,missing you dear hubby,wish i can join you in the new place at this moment,but well,just a matter of two months:) till then enjoy your independence;p

Na jaane kyon, hota hai yeh zindagi ke saath
achanak ye man
kisi ke jaane ke baad, kare phir usiki yaad
chhoti chhoti si baat, na jaane kyon
vo anjaan pal,Dhal gaye kal, aaj vo
rang badal badal, man ko machal machal rahen,
na chal na jaane kyon, vo anjaan pal
tere bina mere nainon me
Toote re haay re sapanon ke mahal
na jaane kyon, hota hai yeh zindagi ke saath ..

VariousMoods

Do you want to watch Mithun chakravarthy the performer,Not Abhishek but Gurukanth Desai and excellent cinematography by Rajeev menon,and above all a good movie by Maniratnam,go watch GURU people,excellent movie and i thoroughly enjoyed it first day last show;p though i am not much convinced about the ending of the movie its a great entertainer with a message,Dare to dream,dare to make them real and also it was one of the most enjoyed evening of my 8 months married life,a movie with hubby and two of my best friends K & S and long drive home at mid night bugging hubby till he got me the long due icecream,while he was busy driving i was busy eating:)

Me :Why dont you drive faaaaaaaaaaaaast,overtake that vehicle in front"

Hubby: Well,with you behind the bike wont go beyond this speed"

Me: You mean i am plump? you are talking about my weight,mean fellow,i hate you"

Hubby: Errrr,i am only saying its not safe driving so fast with you behind"
huh,men! ! ! !

These two are the most important members of our family,Sometimes i wonder how it would have been had they used words to express their thoughts,what do they think of us? what do they feel about me?Their eyes say it all,and they fondly lick my face while i am sleeping,if i am crying they come and touch my hand,the moment i enter the house they bark and bark till i give them a big hug,they mob me and they keep searching my bag to see what i got them to eat.
Raja likes samosas and mirchibajji and all that we humans shall eat,he states it clearly through his actions that he is also a human,he hates fellow dogs,and he would sleep only on the bed,on the chair he sits and he relaxes on the diwan,He makes sure we know clearly about his rights and keeps reminding about our dutues towards him:)

and Sandy is the mild one,well,one look at his eyes and whole world will curse our family that we might be torturing him,dont give him food and that he is facing it all humiliation with silence,well,his eyes are always sad but he is the most pampered and the kid of the house,He needs mom all the time, he follows her religiously where ever she goes, today when i look back past few years of this house i know we laughed more and smiled more because of them,we bonded more as a family because of them,we forgot egos because of them,we felt more secure because of them, this is for you both my dear kiddos,you make our existence complete:) keep rocking.

Ek roj zindagi ke ru baru aa baithe

"Ek roj zindagi ke ru-baru aa baithe...
Zindagi ne poocha..dard kya hai..? Kyun hota hai..?
Kahan hota hai, yeh bhi toh pata nahi chalta....
Tanhai kya hai aakhir...?
Kitne log toh hain...fir tanha kyun ho...?
Mera chehra dekh kar zindagi ne kaha...
main tumhari judwa hun...mujhse naaraz na hua karo...!!
Film--Masoom.
Pic courtesy:Deviant art

Got a two line mail from a stranger today, a line in there goes something like "I dont know what the feeling is,but i really dont want to know it" It happens so many times isnt it,Not everything can be expressed in words,Not everything can have logics in life,no reasons needed,it just happens,and let it be what it is,a formless,wordless Expression,No nouns or verbs matter there,Language wouldn be a hinderance,feel it,its expressed,oh,very well expressed,but can you feel it? I can,I do,thats why Expressions of Silence do matter to me.

A smile at a stranger,a thankyou mumbled silently at a simple gesture which goes unheard, a silent prayer at the temple with no particular wish, a walk through the lanes where i grew up, an awkward hello to a neighbour whim i knew for more than 20yrs now,sitting in the kitchen varandah with the plate of Uttappam and coconut chutney early morning counting those red roses and coconuts in the garden,
mom fussing over me as if i have been away from her all my life,pampering which i never needed or was not given much when i was growing up here mostly because it was dicipline at that time,sitting in once up on my bedroom with mom,bro and my two fur brats and dozing off only to be awaken by the windchimes playing a soothing music,
talking about all the changes which took place in the house from last eight months,from the time i left this house to make my own sweet home,Whole day was spent in talking,i was giving her suggestions on how to maintain kitchen,yeah,I was telling her who managed everything single handedly all her life,New found independence of doing everything my way surely got on to my head i guess,but she was not annoyed,she was smiling and she said she will tryout,sarees,gold to promotions and new recipies,gossip and music,everything was to be shared,and there was so little time,Mom missed her afternoon nap.

I know she is trying to make most of the time i am giving her,i felt guilt building up in my heart,She who gave us all her life today craves for our time,did i get so busy with my life that now i count time in hours and min when i am with her?

And when the time came to leave she was still searching for and packing things she was storing for me all these days 'that small flower basket which she wanted to give me,those sweets she made,that shawl she brought from Mussorie,"but mom,i dont like sweets, i wont use this shawl" I cut the words before they came out.

I will taste those sweets which she packed in a small steel tiffin box,i will use that shawl which has embroidary on it,i will use the basket on my dining table,and i will use all her love as my strength and start a new life at a new place soon,I know she will be happy when she knows i am happy in my little world.

But in all this i wanted to say something to her,i wanted to hug her,but both of us are not used to expressing our affection on face,i wish i could,Everyone says i am good with words,but today when i had to say it to her i was silent,I just waved at her and smiled,she was standing there till she could catch a glimpse of me while i travelled back to my own life,But mom i still want to say "I love you the most"

Hain agar dhoor manzil tho kya?

The festivities begun the moment the clock showed 12AM,1st January 2007,sms and phone calls started pouring in and everyone said "Happy New Year" I could wish them all right then and we laughed and talked and exchanged news but there is a small world of mine here too,in this blog space,where very few know me personally, many became friends through mails and even we are all yet to meet the feeling of belongingness makes the bond even stronger.I sure wanted to write to most of you personally which i will do, but a little later,i dont believe in group mails,or one content and cc to all email id's,so here i wish you all a wonderful year ahead.

Manishji ,let your love for music and poetry be what it has been always,keep writing about all those wonderful poets and writers and i am looking forward for the countdown of best of 2006 music list:) Happy new year to you.

Ardra, my dear sweet friend,i still wonder how someone can be so simple yet so wonderful and friendly and who has been there whenever needed. A wonderful new year to you and to your beautiful family.

Surinder, Oye, happy new year hain ji dost ji :D aapke baare mein kya bole hum,the one who tolerated most of my tantrums,demands and anger and yet smiled all the time and one guy who makes me feel "Zindagi rocks" thanku dear friend, A happy new year to both of you, abhi jaldi se mujhe phone karke thank u bol ki main tere bhare mein itni acchi acchi baatein bothi hoon;p

Hirdu, Hahahaha,He sits in Goa and mails and calls up people from 7.30pm and gives them gyan, thanku hain ji,aapka sabak main yaad rakhoongi jaroor:) happy new year and by the end of 2007 your single status will run away from you,have fun till then.

Gayatri ,thanku thanku for all the cute e cards you sent me dear lady,your profile photo rocks and so do you, One of my new year resolutions is to respond to your mails on time,i promise i wont break this one resolution:) and thanku dear friend, the warmth and love is mutual.May all your dreams come true this year, god bless.

Stoneji ,kyon sirji, kaise manaaya naya saal paraye desh mein? I still dont remember clearly how we both got into touch and even those occassional mails feel so good and special, my dear friend,i wish you and your wifey a wonderful new year ahead,have fun and have a rocking new year.

Ushaji, true to your blog statement "Ageless bonding" the bond i share with you makes me sure and confident of an unknown future, i still remember the words in the mails, and the dont ever give up attitude which you pour through your posts, I wish you a wonderful new year.

Kishore ,hahahaha,i already gave you the biggest surprise for the new year,dint i:d So now you come back soon and lets party;p I wish you a wonderful new year boy,let life give you the best,you deserve it.

Rangakrishnan, i wouldn say sorry for not keeping in touch,maybe because i know you dont need explanations and neither do i,i wish you a wonderful year ahead and i know we both are friends even if we maynot be able to mail eacother for another year also,but seriously i will keep in touch,wait for my mail:)

Atticus, in three years i only received your comment once in the blog but i know you more as a friend than a blogger today,wish you continue blogging but even then,wherever you go,what ever you do let there be happiness, let there be smiles and let there be joy all around,a happy new year to you.

Ashish,oye, now smile and have a blast,and lets keep arguing and use the word Stupid more often and now you keep counting No. of treats you owe me. Life is simple,enjoy it,forget about the past,lets not wait for the future,today is with you,make the most of it, happy new year my dearest friend.

Pallavi, happy new year lady, i just admire you the most and you always were with me whenever i came to you, wish you a wonderful new year,lots of travelling and a much more peaceful and wonderful life ahead,waiting to meet you soon.

Shahid, Aapki dosti sar aankoh par, zindagi ki dor mein kahin aapke kushi bhi likhi hain,dher saver mil hi jaayega sabkuch,thoda sa aur sabr,thoda sa aur intezaar? mushkil hain par namumkin tho nahi na, meri dua hamesha aapke saath hain, khush rahiye, muskuraayiye aur zindagi ke har pal ko apna bana kar do dekhiye, bada accha lagega, naya saal mubaarak ho aapko.

Anumita,sush,Dreamcatcher,Keshi,Ishitha,Hiphopgrandmom, Passerby,da4u,we all know each other mostly by comments here but still you are all special in my blog,i wish a happy new year to you:)

Atul, wish i could understand your posts as others do :( but i seriously i check every post and comments too once in a day,i will keep trying:) happy new year to you, your photo blog is one of the best photo blogs i have seen till date,keep clicking:)

Gangadhar,we never met even after staying in the same city but your son is the cutest i would say and whenever i go to Imax i keep checking if he is near by:) virtual bonding isnt it.a happy new year to you and your family.

Tulan,Just me,Het,Velu,Kaunquest, hope this journey of knowing each other through blogs continues for long,a happy new year to all of you.

I start my new year with this lovely song...........music as always will be a part of this blog space.

Zindagi pyaar ka geet hai,Ise har dil ko gaana padega
Zindagi ghum ka sagar bhi hai,Hanske us paar jaana padega
Hai agar door manzil to kya,Raasta bhi hain mushkil to kya
Raat taaron bhari na mile to,Dil ka deepak jalaana padega
Zindagi pyaar ka geet hai,Ise har dil ko gaana padega